May 2012
24 posts
we’re going to be okay
everything is going to be okay
because i love you
and you love me
no matter what
and all i have to do is just have to keep remembering and reminding myself of that
I’m just
tired
of a lot
I’m sure you are too
im sorry
now if you’ll excuse me I’m going to play in the rain
i have to be more patient understanding and forgiving well id like the same for you
you’re telling me “maddie you don’t need to know everything stop” when I’m asking you what’s wrong is not an answer especially when theres that fucking double standard that fucking we’re not going to hide anything from each other anymore and i fi did that it would be the...
what do i miss
i miss knowing that you would make sure to talk to me everyday no matter what
i miss tickle fights
and zombieing
and you calling me your little monster
and falling asleep with you
and having the stupidest conversation in the word with you
i miss our really long hugs
and when you used to text me i love you
or goodnight
or good morning
or just really long messages about how...
but thank you for a fun few hours
that’s not what i needed to hear that’s not what i wanted to hear that’s not making me feel better
theres too much going on in my head
im angry
just angry
just so fucking angry
and i hate feeling like this i hate being like this i miss being happy i miss things being normal i miss things being easy and okay and even better than normal
i want everything to go back to the way it was
everything is so much more fucked up then i thought it was
i just didn’t want to admit it
i am so ready for college, i want to go now
so so ready
i think I’m going to be sick
i just want to be able to hang out with you and talk with you and have you tell me everything is going to be okay, you’re always saying we have the most perfect relationship of anyone you know i don’t know how thats possible i hate feeling like this i hate being at a loss as to what to do i need your help i need for this to work out i never knew this would ever be this hard i had no...
last night started like shit
and then it was great
and then i realized
that all of this fucking shit is still complete shit
and i don’t know what to do about it
but i want it to stop and i just want it to be over
nee-bag:
It’s really hard being this mature.
well
that makes me feel like shit
thanks
i am such a wreck
i love you
i don’t want to break up that scare(d)(s) the shit out of me
it scares me that you are at that much of a loss as to what to do anymore
she’s such a crazy bitch and the fact that we can’t comfortably be together and have to work around her is fucking dumb
but as hard as this is we’re going to work through it
we’re going to be okay
even if its not...
wallarooo:
sometimes you really annoy me
but the rest makes it worth it
and a lot of the times you really suck
but the rest makes it worth it
floating-free-of-time:
I am absolutely and utterly terrified.
nee-bag:
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mrbutternice:
I’ve always felt unhealthy, that my body is just shutting down day by day. I can’t breathe well some days; some days, I can’t sleep. I feel like if I did shut down, it’d be a sense of relief, though. I wouldn’t regret anything.
i want you to call me or text me or just start the conversation tonight so i know I’m not the only one who’s putting in the effort
you were such a jerk on the phone last night
i don’t like going to bed without an i love you
i don’t like it when you get frustrated and angry with me for no reason
really
fuck you
April 2012
4 posts
i think i just saw you tear up/cry/get really emotional for the first time in the seven months we’ve been together
wow
sex
best friend doesn’t like boyfriend
boyfriend doesn’t like best friend
faaaantastic
SO MUCH COLLEGE SHIT BUH
I am so in love with you.
I can’t help it.
And I want to be with you for as long as I absolutely can.
March 2012
11 posts
i give up
i can’t i just cant
i hate feeling like this
i don’t want to feel like this
i want everything to be okay
stop it stop it stop it fucking stop it
i hate this
fucking stop it
i hate this feeling
i hate that it wont go way
its almost like something is gnawing at my stomach and wont let up and i cant do anything about it
i don’t like going to bed feeling like I’m going to cry
fuuuuuck this
fuck it
i don’t like weird
why can’t this be easy
why can’t we be normal
why can’t you be okay
don’t give me that bullshit
i love you but i have no idea how to deal with any of this and you don’t understand that. I’m doing my best and you get frustrated with me because I’m at a complete loss as to what to do and i hate that. because then you snap and then i get upset because I’m trying, i really am. i just don’t know how to handle any of this whatsoever and i hate it because thats when...
forever 21
pansun
urban outfitters
american eagle
victorias secret
i just
im a total wreck
for so many different reasons
and no one can tell
absolutely no one
and I’m planning on keeping it that way
fucking why are you acting weird stoppp
the fact that you’re getting frustrated with me is not helping
i warned you this was going to happen. I’m sorry I’m tired and stressed and exhausted and not as fun as i normally am. I’m sorry I’m acting weird. its gonna be like that for the next two weeks and I’m trying to control it but the fact is I’m running on steam. i don’t want this last two...
January 2012
8 posts
:(
i was looking forward to spending the day with you
i really really really really want to get into purchase
there’s nothing else in the world i want more right now
but theres this tiny little part of me that wouldn’t mind getting rejected because then id need to go to new paltz and that would make the whole college issue things with us a bajillion times easier
but please
purchase
i just want purchase so bad
now entering overwhelmed mode
http://library.thinkquest.org/3876/iceage.html
http://www.scotese.com/climate.htm
http://www.fordham.edu/halsall/mod/indrevtabs1.asp
And I know you don’t think anything of it because you hate her.
But no matter how irrational she is there are many things she’s been right about, or nearly right.
And the fact that she said she knows we’ll end up together in the end just makes me so happy. Even if we do end up splitting up at some point, the fact that she thinks we’re meant to be is what makes it.
Just...
the awkward moment when your mom walks in on you buying pretty bras and underwear to wear around your boyfriend
Brilliant idea.
Make a blog
that no one else knows about.
HEYHEYYYYY.
I’m intelligent.