we’re going to be okay
everything is going to be okay
because i love you
and you love me
no matter what
and all i have to do is just have to keep remembering and reminding myself of that
we’re going to be okay
everything is going to be okay
because i love you
and you love me
no matter what
and all i have to do is just have to keep remembering and reminding myself of that
im sorry
now if you’ll excuse me I’m going to play in the rain
i have to be more patient understanding and forgiving well id like the same for you
you’re telling me “maddie you don’t need to know everything stop” when I’m asking you what’s wrong is not an answer especially when theres that fucking double standard that fucking we’re not going to hide anything from each other anymore and i fi did that it would be the end of the world you know
because i care about you
you don’t care? fine if you don’t care, if you think theres thirty things that are more important then something I’m a little upset about then i want talk to you about it anymore i love you you’re the one person i should be able to talk to i should be able to come to you when I’m upset I’m doing what you said, I’m forgetting about it all, not letting it affect me but you don’t fucking care? thats fucked up ESPECIALLY when all I’m trying to do is be there for you because that’s my job
i don’t know you well enough
i don’t know you really
sex is not why i left my work for my show i have to hang on friday why i really could have stayed to work on i left because you were very upset very clearly upset so i went to go make sure you were okay, so you could talk to me i love you more than anything i care about you more than anything i don’t think you get that why isn’t a good day enough for me its wonderful of course its great its more than enough for me but you just avoid everything every time theres an issue
what do i miss
but thank you for a fun few hours
that’s not what i needed to hear that’s not what i wanted to hear that’s not making me feel better
theres too much going on in my head
im angry
just angry
just so fucking angry
and i hate feeling like this i hate being like this i miss being happy i miss things being normal i miss things being easy and okay and even better than normal
i want everything to go back to the way it was
everything is so much more fucked up then i thought it was
i just didn’t want to admit it